I'm gonna be 'round my vegetables // I'm gonna chow down my vegetables // I love you most of all, my favorite vega-table!

How was your X-mas?? I hope jolly St. Nick brought you the cheer, good times all around here. Got to see the fam. unit together and what's this!?, there was no arguing whatsoever this holiday season?? There's a Christmas miracle right there. Got to talk to my Doshi, always good stories to tell, and she somehow brought up a deep-rooted fear that we both shared, concerning a horrifying, terrifying, mask/gloves hidden within the confines of my G-pa's bathroom at their old house. We laughed about how literally it would play mind games with you, knowing that it rest just inside the drawer, almost to the point where you would avoid going in there altogether. Like a Goosebumps book or something, had to be cursed. Simply as this for me: SMiLE by Brian Wilson (of Beach Boys fame) is the best album I've heard in almost 5 years. What else, it's been far too long....hm..ah the Sat. before X-mas, Isaacs, Shannon and I went to the Pistons game, if you saw it you couldn't believe it either, the game, but I mostly couldn't believe how much fun I had play-fighting (Isaacs calls it "flirt-fighting", I'm still living under the possible false pretense that I've never flirted with a lady in my entire life to this point) back and forth with her throughout the night, she actually invited me to help set up the Hanukkah (as opposed to the Menorah, with it's 9 candles, 4 on each side and the center one.....that was an inside joke for her, whom has never been here actually, I'll leave it all the same I guess) / Christmas tree with her fam. but I had to work, so I called in the next day, but then I guess my seat got filled and then there were some other things, but we talked into the snowy night and it was wonderful. I had a snow adventure of my own just a bit ago. I'm so smart, rather than crossing Baldwin to get to the Pier One Imports store for a box for Chris' gift, I park at the fitness center and cross by foot! I mean it's one thing to know that no motor vehicle can kill you (see survival of passenger crash, roll-over crash and the Justin jaywalking adventure of years past) but another to try it in literally 3 feet of snow, you would fall in and could literally crawl underneath the surface, like you were in a trench war or something tunneling under enemy lines I dreamed. I did get the box, and 3 candycane treats for some friends as well!

Fox in the snow, where do you go // to find something you can eat? // Cause the word out on the street is you are starving

Some boring 2-day fest... (Wayne Coyne of The Flaming Lips, Kraftwerk, Thom)

They have (basically) announced the lineup for the coming year's Coachella festival! I WILL NOT make the same mistake as last year and not go, (with Bowie, Coldplay, Interpol, Franz Ferdinand, TV on the Radio, Yeah Yeah Yeah's, Clinic, REM, Bright Eyes, The Shins and Rilo Kiley only some of the guests this year). Hit me up if you want to go also. As I walked Shannon to her car after our final, I asked her if she got "that graduating high school feeling" after leaving the room, to which I explained that there was a kid that I knew just barely and as I was sitting out of the room and he said "see you later" I just watched him go and thought of how I would, in fact, never see him again ever. Just random really, but I guess when you live by the small things sometimes you die by the small things, but she told me that "You'd be surprised" and then I believed her. So kleenex and I have long ago gone our separate ways (I am way too bothered with that aloe oil whatever they paste on there and it gets all over the upper lip and it's all greasy....), I am totally a toilet paper nose blowing man, and the thing now is that every time I go to get a new roll, it's up in the Parent's b-room, the "secret" smoking chamber, and the roll is saturated like whoa with second hand smoke delight. I'm like halfway done with the roll and I'm considering getting the patch.

we are pals, it's cool cause we're not lonely // Shallow gene pool, there's nothin to my only clonie

I had an odd dream experience the other day. See I have my Tele come on to wake me up in the morning (or afternoon lately, "Old habits...") and it's like 2/3 max. volume and it's Sean Salisbury and 2 other guys doing an NFL talk show on the ESPN and if you're like me, you do the fall asleep and wake back up 2-3 times before you throw the covers off, but this was a bit different. What happens is I fall back asleep and I'm walking in the Hallmark Card aisle at Walgreeners, and in place of music it is Sean Salisbury talking about this week's matchups on the gridiron coming from the TV. It was funny because I was getting cards AND completely disagreeing with everything he says as usual. In other news that doesn't tamper with the fabric of consciousness, the Bentley family got the X-mas tree up and running tonight! Yes that means the 49ers helmet is perfectly positioned as are the 4 Kindergarten pictured gold painted noodle angels that we had to recreate piece by piece after mice ate them 2 years ago, good times. Watched 'The English Patient' last night out of the blue, just an amazing film, the scene when he is lying in the sand by the railroad tracks and he knows he's not going to make it back in time.... , it's my 'Sleepless in Seattle' basically (well that's not totally true, 'Roman Holiday' is, this could be my 'Whey Harry Met Salley'), if you've seen it watch it again and if you havn't, save it for when your are with somebody is my opinion. Like I thought I was going to do with Titanic. Unreal. What a great song about cloning, and the most cuddly F-Bomb you'll ever hear on record.

Drink up, baby, look at the stars // I'll kiss you again between the bars

I think it's the funniest thing when you feel like you're totally resigned about something and you think that in the future when you think of how something began to end, you will think of this moment and then suddenly she comes out of nowhere and talks to you almost to the point when you are the one that thinks it's time to go and she says she'll call you soon. It's a funny game (a big checkmark next to the 'knows of the moments where one person has to take command when the other is unable/down' category). I get home that chilly Wednesday night and find that the younger brothers have had another final straw with our Ma and have packed their bags. A bit more to be worried about I think this time, Baun took $1400 cash out to I guess find someplace to live, and Brandon came and had a friend follow him (picking up and driving Brandon's truck) driving his car to a friend's house "prolly for a few months". So then there were/are 4. It feels really cold around here, I feel the worst for my Dad, like feeling responsible for things coming apart even though he has nothing at all to do with it and in fact he is the silent glue holding it somewhat together... I watched 'Ghostbusters' a while ago and I thought that it was the funniest movie ever, then I saw 'Addams Family Values' and I decided that it was the funniest ever, sorta like how I thought Kraftwerk 'The Model' (my usual every 9 months tech-pop phase) was the greatest and then I heard Elliott Smith 'Between the Bars' on T.V. and now it's #1. I'm like a teenager again (twirls short blonde hair between fingers, looks vacant).

Make it with me in preparation for tonight // We've got so much to leave // That's not what makes this right

In a matter of a few days I got my two 'A Very Long Engagement' posters AND saw the commercial for 'The Life Aquatic', both coming around the X-mas. Christmas is going to be off the chain. I'm going to propose that for New Years we have a costume ball, complete with the Walgreeners trad. beverage, Orchard Ridge Sparkling Apple Juice. Drinking a bottle as if it were Merlot or some such thing right now. Mr. Ivezaj and I talked some more at the Walgreeners today about his lady, he went and saw her and gave her a 4 pg. note of "everything" he said, and he said that she couldn't marry him and couldn't be with him any longer. I'm with Mr. I on this when he says that it was his family's religious beliefs and non-acceptance of her that contributed heavily in pushing her away from him. That makes me really mad. Thanks organized religion for wars, elitism/self-righteousness, centuries of cultural distrust and hatred (does anyone remember why??) and now for being a barrier between two human beings that love one another. I am going to talk to the old man about learning me to change my own oil from now on. Do you ever go to those oil chang places where they are "so kind" to point out something for free, (ie. my air filter needs to be replaced soon) and when you tell them "My Dad will help me there, thanks though." your car suddenly smells like exhaust when you go above 1 on the heater? They did something like that before also, they lost a piece of the auto and messed up my air pressure in my car a while back, to which The Dad aka MacGyver (Did you ever believe that your Dad was somebody like that growing up? I honestly thought my Dad was Mac growing up, and with just cause) pulled out the knowledge to save the day. He's a superhero.

If you're drivin' into town with a dark cloud above you // Dial in the number who's bound to love you

Have you seen Psycho lately ?? I had to throw in an all-nighter today for blasted Speech class and I caught the last few minutes of it on TCM so after that I put it in and watched it twice through and I remembered that I forgot how crazy good it is. Like there is this scene after Norman Bates kills Marion Crane (the shower scene) and loads her into the car trunk and pushes it into that swamp pond and it slowly sinks and he is eating nuts and it stops sinking at like 2/3 the way down and he just has this insane nervous look about him, then just as he looks around it starts sinking again and he cracks this 1/2 sec smile in the left corner of his mouth that is the devil. And I watched the last scene after the mystery has been unraveled and he is sitting with a blanked wrapped around him and he as the Mother character has an internal dialogue and at the end of it with his head down and eyes looking up, gives the most demented and frightening look ever!!! I love the arguments Norman and his mother have back and forth as the same human being the split personality and how the Mother finally dominates him and destroys Norman's ego. Don't we all have someone else rattling around in our head you know? A good half dozen in this cranium I'm thinking. Got 'The Most Gigantic Lying Mouth of All Time', if you've seen the movie 'The Ring' it's basically 24 videos like the one in 'The Ring'. For a journal entry in Speech, we had to write about someone that we knew that went along with 'The Stages of Relational Development' chart (basically a step pyramid going up and down, up being stuff like initiation, experimenting etc, the top being bonding and the down stagnating, avoiding and finally terminating) and since I haven't had anybody like that before, I had to make up the page worth of analization. I decided that we met a few years ago when a friend of mine brought his g/f and her friend, and I talked to her friend "wingman" style and found that I liked her a lot, so we talked and after a while parted, and we met up a few times again and again and soon we talked on the phone often, seeing films and everyone telling us that we are dating and us being the last to really see it and then we have these special moments where we're in a bubble almost and it's like we have these secrets and places and moments that nobody can take away or understand no matter what. Then H.S. finishes and our College/Work schedules change and we don't get to see each other as much and when we do, we feel like we have to make up for it all and it comes out pressured and forced and it feels fake so we slowly see each other less and less as things come apart and finally we think "maybe it's best if we are just friends". I really did have to pause 'Psycho' for a minute because it made me sad, but I eventually came to thinking that I was happy that I ever got to have such a great fake relationship in the first place, and I wished her all the best. Well me and my 5 other personalities agree that we need sleep.