I think that you know what to do // Impossible? Yes, but it's true

"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans."

I am nobody's little weasel

For the first time, I feel like I have not met the person that I am in Love with. This is a little bit scary but it's also invigorating.

What is she doing right now? Is she asleep dreaming of where I am?

What will she do tomorrow? Homework? Laundry? Dance in the snow or on a beach or to her headphones in a secret place?

What book is she reading? What is her favourite dinosaur? When it is warm, does she roll down her windows and sing to the night when her heart is swept up in a moment of joy?

Watching Amélie tonight with my sister, I wondered what kind of happenstance might run our paths together.

Ob-la-di, Ob-la-da

So this is the new year (bang bang)...

Only I do feel quite different.

Secret adventures in faraway seaside lands and the toasting to wishes of happiness and love with wondrous friends. But suddenly warmth in journeys away from the greatest friends I could ever dream for where once there was darkness. A chin ready to take another of life's occasional blow squarely without shattering to bits. Deep breaths where there were lowered eyes once before.

And a willingness to be free of the 'desperate for a girlfriend to complete me' rat race. Suddenly I'm staring up at the sun and holding up my arms for it's comfort and dancing through the breeze instead of letting it all pass me by. No time to waste. Feet don't fail me now.

I know that she is out there.

I'm still looking. But I'm no longer waiting.